Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Weaknesses

When it comes to weaknesses I have quite a few. Especially when it comes to purchasing unnecessary  items.

There's just something about mugs and chairs and stationery supplies/office supplies that make me want to buy them. Even when I don't need them. Or really even want them.

The Mugs

I use my mugs on a daily basis. And I love having variety when choosing a particular tea for the day. But I certainly don't need quite as much variety as I already have, yet I "fall in love" with new mugs whenever I see them and have to fight the temptation to buy them, though sometimes I fail.

I stick to the rule about waiting 72 hours before making a decision. Sometimes I wait longer than that. But when I'm still admiring a particular craftsman's mug months later, I just have to click "buy" button online.

All but two of the mugs I use are handmade. And the two that aren't have this wonderful round shape that feels quite lovely to drink from. One of those two is based on a handmade shape and machine made in Portugal. The other is covered in an artist's design, but is likely manufactured in China - given how inexpensive it was.

If I were to find a handmade round mug I'd definitely part with those two. But I doubt that would be the end to my mug collecting desires and imagine I'd discover a new potter with a must have mug, or find one of the existing artisans I love has come up with a new design I'd want to own.

I may just have to learn to be okay with a forever revolving set of mugs or the fact that I would one day have to allot a shelf in my cupboards just for my expanding mug collection. Or maybe I just have to hide from instagram and stay clear of my favorite online stores.

The Chairs

I find beauty in the shape of a chair - especially ones that are wood. Though it can be a combination of wood and fabric. Or it can be a combination of fabric and metal.

As it is I have far too many chairs of the dining variety. We typically only use two, yet I have six - one that was formerly an office chair that lives next to my office desk; one that I couldn't resell for a price I wanted that now lives next to the television and holds a chair cushion my husband uses on our coffee table to cushion his feet; one that lives in our walk-in closet that we use to put our clothes on as we're getting ready; one that lives in my "sailing" closet that one of my cats likes to sleep on; and two that live at our table, that we use each day for meals.

But whenever I see a new chair go on sale or go up for auction on eBay I have to fight the urge to buy it. From Cherner to Møller, to Eames to Jacobsen, to Wegner to Thonet, to Juhl to Nelson, to Breuer to Saarinen, I wish I could have them all in my home. But with no more than four people likely ever to dine with us, the six I have is already in excess.

Fortunately the lounge chairs I adore are way out of my price range, and would take up more space than I will likely ever have in my home. Though I hope one day for the Eames chair and ottoman for my main living space and the womb chair and ottoman for my bedroom.

The Stationery Supplies

I cannot be trusted in stores like Paper Source. Not for a hot minute. There's just something about pretty paper, and colored pens, and Post-Its and labels and cutting tools, and stamps, and embossers, that make me want them all. Even though when I do buy such things they go unused - I'm not particularly crafty and I have absolutely no use for 99% of what I acquire or wish to acquire.

Even Staples makes me feel like a kid in a candy store. Row after row of pretty colored paper clips, removal tab dividers, binder clips, old fashioned staplers, colored folders and files - all draw me to them. And forget about well-made three-ring binders.

Yet I don't keep paperwork if at all humanly possible. I don't write letters of the printed variety. I have a love-hate relationship with the Post-It. And if I ever needed a paperclip I could "borrow" one from my office - though that has never happened in the umpteen years I've been working remotely.

Perhaps it's that I crave organization, or the idea of organization. I've always loved the idea of "a place for everything and everything in its place." And the one about having the right tool for the job. But having fewer things means needing fewer of these stationery/organizational/office supplies.

And yet I find myself pining for them any time I walk into Paper Source for a birthday card, and often find myself leaving with something absolutely unnecessary.

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And, yes... it's an odd set of things to have a weakness for - they are all seemingly unrelated. However, I think they all relate in one way - I find them all very pleasing to the eye.

I just have to recognize my weaknesses, acknowledge them, and not give in to them too often...or at all.

To be continued...

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

Binges and Purges: July 2018

I did quite a bit of decluttering over the month of July - though much of that involved plastic bins and old papers. I gave away a few items on letgo and craigslist, sold a couple of things, and gave a box full of items to family and a box full of books to an avid reader.

And while I feel like I'm nearing the end of decluttering for now, I still have a few things I need to make decisions on in August - including an unused hanging lamp, unused coat "rack," two lithographs, a few baskets that aren't quite sized right, a decorative pillow, a worn-but-loved duvet, a broken tool box, some not-too-comfy shoes, an unused tea ball, those pesky allen wrenches, a novelty ice tray, a couple of mugs, a decorative bowl, an older pair of pants I don't reach for very often, and some newly rendered excessive cat supplies.

The Purges

  • Two decorative wall shelves (sold)
  • Two kitchen towels (gave away to family)
  • Two duvets (gave away to family)
  • Two tote bags (gave away to family)
  • Two handmade bowls (gave away to family)
  • Two handmade mugs (gave away to family)
  • Two champagne glasses (recycled)
  • Two jute baskets (gave away to family)
  • A soap dish (recycled)
  • A desk tray (gave away)
  • A wooden coat "hook" (gave away)
  • A file tote (recycled)
  • All papers contained in the file tote (shredded and discarded)
  • A paper shredder (gave away)
  • Four plastic sweater/shoe bins (gave away)
  • 22 books (gave away)
  • An impulse purchase lamp (sold four days later)
  • Two soft woven baskets (gave away to family)
  • 3 small photo books new/used (gave away to family)
  • A spool of faux rawhide (gave away to family)
  • A hand towel (gave away to family)
  • A destroyed bath towel (recycled)
  • Two small nesting baskets (gave away to family)
  • The S'well bottled purchased for a family member but forgot to give (gave away to family)
  • The Tiffany box holding a pen received as a gift (recycled)
  • A handful of store loyalty cards (shredded)
  • Two unused old Yeti lids (recycled)
  • An unused Coach wristlet (up for sale)
  • An unused bullet journal (in the "donate" pile)
Wow, 66 items? I had no idea. Of course if I counted all the paperwork shredded as individual items vs. one, I'd be in the thousands.

Of course that number wouldn't be nearly as high if I hadn't purchased so many things in July.

The Binges

  • A S'well bottle (meant as a gift, forgot to give and thought about keeping, but finally gave away)
  • An impulse purchase lamp from Article (sold almost immediately as it wasn't right for the space along with a decorative lightbulb that I'd had that wasn't in use)
  • A soft basket from Container Store (gave away as it wasn't right)
  • A lidded water hyacinth basket from Container Store (still have, but don't love so may give away)
  • Two water hyacinth baskets from Container Store to replace plastic bin for sail stuff (love)
  • A lidded handwoven round basket from General Store (will keep but not quite what I had hoped to use it for)
  • Two baskets from McGee & Co (will keep but not quite the size I thought they'd be)
  • A wicker basket from Rejuvenation (using in alternate way as it was too large for the space I intended it for)
  • Two ash baskets from Rejuvenation (using in alternate way as too large to hold my sailing gear as planned)
  • A soft recycled plastic basket from DWR (planned to use for personal paperwork - but shredded all, so may use for my job)
  • A mug from Anthropologie (it was too cute to resist, though will give away eventually)
  • A mug from ABC Home (not as comfortable in the hand as I thought it would be, will likely give to family eventually)
  • A pair of jeans
  • A sleep shirt
17 items. Okay so that wasn't as bad as I thought - I felt like there was so much more. Though that was perhaps because I kept having to buy baskets as none of the ones worked in the way I wanted them too. I feel a little like Goldilocks - this basket is much too large, and this one is much too small, and this one is too soft, and this one is too stiff.

And I still don't have a good solution for storing my computer charge cable and my portable hard drives - the water hyacinth basket was too large, the round ikea baskets purchased in June were too small, the McGee baskets were too large. At least I finally found a decent solution for my sailing gear - though they aren't very sturdy and I have a feeling I might have to buy replacements one day.

Oh and I did try and purchase a better floor lamp - but canceled the order after too long a delay.

Of course I'm not counting things I purchased for the felines - Farmhouse Pottery came out with cat dishes and as they are handmade versus machine made overseas, I had to purchase a few to supplement their USA made stainless steel dishes so that I could get rid of the inferior quality ceramic dishes.

Hopefully, August will be a better month in terms of purchases (as in less purchasing). Though I have a few items I'm considering, including a hopefully right-sized round lidded basket to contain my hard drives and/or charge cable, a lidded storage container from Humble Ceramics to hold my baking soda used as cleaning supplies, a replacement rug from Home Depot made out of cotton for beneath my desk chair instead of the synthetic rug that feels just awful, and a handmade mug that is a bit more comfortable in the hand than the one handmade in Australia from ABC Home.

I suppose as long as I finally make decisions on the previously mentioned items above, it won't cause a bump in numbers of "all the things." And hopefully I'll make smarter (or no) purchases in August so that there won't need to be a binges and purges post in early September.

To be continued...

Friday, July 20, 2018

more valuable, less meaningful

As I move forward in my journey toward a simpler, freer and more meaningful life with fewer things, I find myself left with possessions that are more valuable - both to me and price-wise.

Yet, while these things are more important and more expensive, they are also less meaningful to me.

In the past I would find myself fretting about my possessions, worrying about some potential damage, worrying about some actual damage, worrying about their value to others, worrying about any potential resale value, worrying, worrying, worrying.

While the process of getting rid of my things has left me with fewer things to worry about, initially it made me worry even more about the things that remained. I would cling to these items with an intensity that scared me. But thankfully that lasted only a short while.

As time went on I found it easier and easier to part with things, as meaning didn't attach quite as strongly anymore - except for those few items that had no monetary value but had a huge sentimental component.

But furniture, artwork, dishware, kitchenware, clothing and accessories have begun to mean less and less to me. I still enjoy nice things, things of quality, things I consider valuable and aesthetically pleasing. But I don't obsess over them the way I used to.

If something were to break I might bemoan the fact that I'd have to go out and replace it. But if my cats leave scratches in the wood surfaces of my tables, desks, benches, if movers chip, bang, dent, scratch my name-brand items that come with their very own certificates of authenticity, I am not going to fret over it the way I would have in the past.

These things mean something to me in the sense that I enjoy having them and they serve a purpose, but they are not so meaningful so as to cause me stress, make me angry, make me and my family tiptoe around them like they are museum pieces.

And while I am so very glad I've come to realize this now, I do wish I discovered this years ago and not wasted so much time worrying about stuff.

To be continued...

Thursday, July 19, 2018

Minimalist decor


It's not easy to draw a clear line between need and want when it comes to minimalist decor. I've looked at many spaces that to me seem quite minimalist in terms of decor, and yet they've contained pieces that for me wouldn't be considered need items.

For many, items like a sofa, a bed, or even a table and chairs would be necessities. Others might consider those unnecessary. Some might need accessory pillows on their sofa or on their bed, where others might think them too abundant to be minimal.

Is a lamp necessary only if there are no overhead lights? Is a piece of artwork a must if bare, stark walls leave one feeling glum?

Just because something "sparks joy" doesn't make it a need. And yet we surround ourselves with things we love and still want to be seen as living minimally.

In my home I have many pieces of furniture - most all of which serve a need for me and my family - that get used pretty much every single day. I have a few accessory items - sofa pillows, lamps, storage baskets, ceramic containers, place mats - that also have a specific function and fill a "need." And I have a couple of art pieces and several wall clocks that only serve to add color to an otherwise blank wall space... and maybe tell me the time.

While I might have (mostly) achieved the "minimalist" amount of decor that would allow me to function as I "need" to and live as comfortably as I (and my family) would like to, I cannot look around my space and say that it is anything remotely resembling minimal.

So perhaps instead I should think of my decor as functionally minimal?

To be continued...

Monday, July 16, 2018

What ifs

For the first time in years - since I realized that maybe I had too much stuff and put way too much value on the stuff that I did have - I can see "the end" of a goal in sight. And while this makes me happy on many levels, it also leaves me with a case of the "what ifs."

What if I reach my goal of simplifying to a level that makes me happy - then what? What's next?

What if I reach my goal and discover I'm still not happy with my relationship with my things? What do I do then?

What if I reach my goal only to find myself dissatisfied and wanting to get rid of more?

What if I reach my goal and find that I have so much free time that I don't know what to do with it all?

And on.

And on.

And on.

I've spent so many years and brain cycles thinking about the things I own, being mad at myself for not being able to let go, worrying about the things that I do own and want to keep, worrying about what kind of person I'd be if I didn't have all of these things. Bingeing and purging and bingeing and purging.

While some people might identify themselves through their things, I'm starting to think I've been identifying myself as someone who was perpetually dissatisfied with my things. And without this identity, who will I be?

Without the daily searches through my cupboards for things to get rid of, how will I spend my time?

Without the constant posts on Craiglist to give away or sell my things, how will I experience that "rush" when something leaves my home to go to someone else's?

Without the lists of "to do's" that I constantly revise, what kinds of lists will fill their place?

And without the forever question "what can I get rid of next?" what will I be asking myself?

What if I don't like the question that takes its place?

While I am slightly terrified of all the "what ifs" I am also kind of excited. Because while I think that in many ways I probably will be very much the same person I am today - and will be somewhat disappointed because of that fact - I also think that without the excuse of "stuff" I just might discover something about myself that I've suppressed.

And maybe, just maybe, I should be asking myself - what if an amazing opportunity presents itself because you're not so consumed by your things?

To be continued...

Thursday, July 12, 2018

Minimalism and YouTube

With our last move we've decided to go unplugged from cable. It's a first for us, and I can't say that I miss it. Not with Netflix, Amazon's Prime Video and YouTube available to us via our Apple TV.

It's a huge cost saving for us not having that ginormous bill each month for something we rarely watched. Though it does mean I'm spending more time checking out YouTube videos and watching apartment tours, anti-hauls, decluttering and minimalism videos.

Which in theory is a great thing. But...

When people start showcasing the things they have, I find myself at times thinking, "Hey, I need that!" or "That would be cool to own." Most times they are things I never would have wanted but for the fact that I saw them on countless videos. Only sometimes they are things that I actually had a need for or would serve a purpose that adds value.

Even watching The Minimalists living room conversations videos makes me covet the bookcase behind Joshua Fields Millburn - a similar bookcase to the two from DWR that I had sold a couple years back because I didn't entirely need them and moving them from place to place was more hassle than benefit.

Before watching minimalism/decluttering/organization videos on YouTube I never wanted baskets in the way that I do now. (I was fine with the plastic bins I had been using for years.) I never wanted a round mug - but have since acquired one and have my eye on another. I never would have purchased an inexpensive faux brass lamp that serves a needed purpose but goes against my commitment to only buying things either of quality, handmade, made locally, or made ethically. (After recycling the box I already wanted to rid myself of this lamp.)

While I have stuck to my guns about not impulse buying things immediately after seeing them on a minimalist-ish video, and I've fought the urge to buy plants (I have a black thumb and kill almost all living greenery and really don't want to make that mistake again), I've still purchased items that I don't have an immediate use for, don't necessarily fit with my decor, are items I will likely purge within the next couple of years - all because I saw them on a YouTube video in someone's well-decorated minimalist apartment, in a minimalist haul, on a minimalist shopping trip, or on an apartment tour suggested by YouTube "because I watched...". And forget about the "wish list" items.

Thanks to YouTube I've purchased...
  • A set of 3 handwoven nesting baskets from Ikea - a store I said I wasn't going to buy from again due to the fact that most of the items are mass produced, even though the baskets supposedly aren't. And while I thought I "needed" one basket to hide my laptop cable when not in use, I certainly have no need of three. And I probably don't even need the one.
  • Four baskets from H&M - a store I never knew had home goods until I watched videos on YouTube. One is actually perfect for what I needed it for. Two I've already given away. And one I am not sure what to do with.
  • A Weck jar from World Market. I'd never heard of this brand before YouTube and never would have stepped foot into one of their stores as I thought it was something else altogether. But I use this jar every single day to store the excess ground coffee - since I never seem to get the quantity right.
  • Two handmade bowls from The Citizenry - an online store I'd never known about that has some great products, beautifully made. Though I already had too many bowls and while beautiful, I never really reached for them, so recently gave them away.
  • The aforementioned "brass" lamp from Article - another store I'd never known about until my YouTube binges. It's so poorly made that the different screw-together sections are different colors, there were metal shavings throughout the box and all over my floor as I was assembling it, the cord feels very cheap, it was mass produced, and doesn't look nearly as lovely as it did in the YouTube video home tour. While I need a reading lamp at the side of my sofa, it will not be this one and I will likely be giving it away very, very soon. I definitely got what I paid for.
  • An assortment of baskets from various stores - because the baskets look so much lovelier than plastic bins - a few from Muji for bathroom supplies and hats; a few from Rejuvenation for kitchen towels, cleaning towels, sailing gear; a few from Hawkins NY by way of Food52 for pantry supplies; a couple from Yamazaki Home via Food52 for pantry supplies; a set of 3 from McGee & Co. for cleaning supplies; one from Design Within Reach for office supplies; and one from The Container Store (en route) for backup hard drives.
  • S'well water bottles - a large and small. Both are used, but I could just as easily have used the other water bottles I have for sailing.
  • Chemex coffee pot and hario burr grinder. I'd always liked the idea of the Chemex brewer - since I first saw it over a decade ago at Crate & Barrel. But it wasn't until I saw a number of videos on YouTube about how good it was (taking the acid out of the coffee) that I caved. And of course I had to grind the beans fresh to get the best experience - though I drew the line and did not purchase the recommended scale. Granted, this is a purchase I use every day, and get great value from - as the coffee is so much less acidic than it was from my French press. But still... I had been somewhat satisfied with that machine for years.
  • Slim hangers/black wire hangers/wood hangers/cedar hangers - I'd been using my plastic hangers of various colors for years. But after seeing how lovely closets looked with slim hangers (though I didn't opt for velvet ones) I wanted my closet to look just as lovely. So I swapped them out. And while all these hangers do make my closets look so much nicer, I didn't know I wanted nicer hangers until I saw these lovely closets on YouTube.
Most of these are small items that don't cost very much, but they are items that aren't absolute necessities. Even though I did want to move away from plastic storage solutions where possible. And even though I needed to buy a new part for my French press. But nothing purchased was mandatory, at least not right now.

But it's my "wish list" items that have grown exponentially thanks to YouTube. And even though I go through and purge the wish lists from time to time especially after the impulse to buy leaves, I still have too many things I now wish for.

A few of which are...
  • The Polanco concrete side table from The Citizenry - a perfect patio side table, as we don't have one right now and we really do need something to make it a functional space - putting drinks and computers on the concrete floor is not ideal.
  • A small mug and a small bowl in the "painted poppies" line from Anthropolgie - a store I had stopped buying home decor from years ago as I wanted things that were less ornate/kitschy/mass-produced. They are so adorable, but I definitely do not need another bowl, and I have more than enough mugs.
  • Norwex microfiber cleaning cloths - because they're supposedly the best and I'm forever looking for great cleaning solutions.
  • Artwork for the guest bath - because it just looks so forlorn and every minimalist home/apartment tour I've watched doesn't have neglected looking spaces.
  • A selection of area rugs from Home Depot - because the rugs I have now in our office just look bad.
  • Baskets and a bath stool from McGee & Co. to contain things I don't even have.
  • Baskets and Artwork from West Elm - a store I also opted to stop shopping at years ago due to the not great quality of the items I'd had.
  • Mugs from ABC Home - because I need more mugs. Not.
  • Baskets from Structube - a store that had some interesting things - because I need more baskets. Not.
  • Frames from Framebridge - because I might want to include a few framed pictures on my new bookshelf.
Ugh. I think I need to reassess what I watch, or how I watch. Because I'm worried that one day I'll find myself in Target looking for the light-up @ or # decor items in clearance.

To be continued...

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

all the things

I wish I were one of those minimalists who could count every single item they have quickly and easily and without having to group things - like paperclips, Q-tips, screws, drywall anchors, hair elastics, et cetera.

Even my keepsake items I end up grouping instead of counting: like 1 decorative letter box versus the box plus each of the items contained therein. Or one scrapbook, versus the book, the pages, and each item pasted on each page.

I can easily count things like dishes, clothes, furniture. electronics. But if I had to count every single photo, every paper, every app on my iPhone, every song, every video, every digital pic, I'd likely exceed the average amount of things in a home in the U.S.

But maybe they weren't taking into consideration digital clutter or keepsakes when they came up with that number? Maybe they didn't take into account a box of 50 screws as 50 actual items? Maybe they weren't counting consumable products - like food, toiletries, cleaning supplies?

I tried to go around my new space and list all the things I had, but it got too overwhelming and I hadn't even left the kitchen area.

But on my second attempt, excluding consumables (even those things that likely weren't going to be consumed very quickly) it became a little less daunting... well, until I tried to include the things belong solely to my non-minimalist husband or to my two non-minimalist felines. So I decided not to do that.

I also have in my possession a number of things that belong to the company I work for, but as they aren't mine I am not going to count them as such.

And as I'm also not going to count digital clutter, I found it much, much easier to itemize all the things.

So here is my attempt at tallying the things that belong just to me or are shared-use items that are non-consumable.

The entryway (5 items)

  • Clock
  • Stool
  • Coat rack (wall-mount)
  • Entry "table" (wall-mount)
  • Valet (aka small felt tray for husband's keys/wallet/phone)

The hall closet (31 items)

  • Wooden coat hangers (10)
  • Shoe rack
  • Shoes (5 pairs)
  • Plastic shoe bins (3)
  • Basket (2 - 1 unused)
  • Hats (2)
  • Tote bags (2)
  • Purse
  • Sunglasses
  • Wallet
  • iPhone + headphones (counting as 2)
  • Fleece

The guest bathroom (10 items)

  • Shower curtain
  • Shower curtain liner (counting, though somewhat of a consumable)
  • Soap dish
  • Hand towel
  • Bath towel
  • Storage bin for bath towel
  • Trash can
  • Bath mat
  • Command hook (to hold hand towel)
  • Toilet brush

The kitchen (234 items)

  • Counter stools (2)
  • Table
  • Chairs (2)
  • Placemats (2)
  • Pillar candle
  • Candle plinth (really a trivet but it looked so cool as a candle base)
  • Trash can
  • Area rug
  • Pots (3)
  • Pans (2)
  • Strainer
  • Baking sheets (2)
  • Pasta bowl
  • Salad bowl
  • Change bowl
  • Microwave egg cookers (2)
  • Glass lidded bowls (2)
  • Toolbox
  • Hammer
  • Screw drivers (2)
  • Awl
  • Measuring tape
  • Level
  • Tech screwdriver kit
  • Tech screwdriver all-in-one
  • Wrench
  • Allen wrenches (20 - I really should ditch a few)
  • Screw box
  • Paper tray
  • Ice pack thingie
  • Cutting board
  • Dish drainer
  • Mail crock
  • Electric kettle
  • Toaster
  • Salt grinder
  • Pepper grinder
  • Paper towel holder
  • Fruit bowl
  • Sugar shaker
  • Salt shaker
  • Dish brush scrubbers (2 - somewhat of a consumable but these are meant to last)
  • Pot holders (2)
  • Utensil tray
  • Forks (12)
  • Knives (6)
  • Spoons (12)
  • Paring knives (2)
  • Bottle opener
  • Chopsticks (1 pair)
  • Zero water filter
  • Zero water filter tester
  • Scissors
  • "Junk drawer" metal containers/holders (9)
  • Battery tester
  • Battery charger
  • Battery backup
  • Battery containers/holders (3)
  • iPhone charge cable
  • Kindle charge cable
  • Spare coasters (4)
  • Spatula
  • Pasta fork
  • Can opener
  • Cheese slicer
  • Ceramic knife
  • Ceramic knife sharpener
  • Spare placemats (2)
  • Wooden spoon
  • Ladle
  • Measuring spoon set
  • Measuring cup set
  • Tea ball
  • Ice cream scoop
  • Large plates (4)
  • Small plates (4)
  • Cereal bowls (4)
  • Berry bowls (2)
  • Pasta bowls (2)
  • Soup bowls (2)
  • Specialty bowls (4 - counting those used exclusively by my husband)
  • Mugs (11 - though 2 are technically not mine)
  • Glasses (6)
  • Decorative bowl (unused, to give away)
  • Chemex
  • Hario burr grinder
  • Weck jar w/wood lid
  • Large jar w/wood lid
  • Mason jar
  • Glass straw cleaner
  • Glass straws (7)
  • S'well bottles (3 - one was meant to be given as a gift, but I kept it...oops)
  • Yeti Rambler
  • Alternate Rambler lid
  • Yeti Tumbler (2)
  • Alternate Tumbler lids (2)
  • Hydroflask
  • Alternate Hydroflask lid
  • Thermos
  • Pet roller
  • Bamboo drawer dividers (4)
  • Ice trays (2)
  • Gifted champagne glasses (2)
  • Gifted soup cups (2)
  • Gifted candle stick holders (3)
  • Baskets (6)
  • Recycle bins (2)

The laundry closet (54)

  • Laundry basket on wheels
  • Small plastic bin of papers to sort
  • Mop + bucket (counting as 2)
  • Swiffer products (3)
  • Small broom + dustpan set (counting as 2)
  • Command hooks (4)
  • Vacuum + attachments (counting as 1)
  • Baskets (6)
  • Review books (18 - to be given away once read)
  • Plastic book box (1)
  • Kitchen towels (13)
  • Heating pad
  • Plastic shoe box for heating pad

The living room (34 items)

  • Lamp (2)
  • Clock
  • Pillows (4)
  • Recliner
  • Coffee table
  • Coasters (2)
  • Area rug
  • Sofa
  • Chair
  • Chair pad
  • Side table
  • Laptop w/cable (counting as 1)
  • Media cabinet
  • Apple TV
  • TV
  • Time machine
  • Wireless router
  • Photo boxes (2)
  • Card box
  • Home binder
  • DVD backup binder
  • Scrapbook
  • Decorative 9x12x3 letter boxes (6)

The patio (3 items)

  • Doormat
  • Lounge chair
  • Rocker

The office (33 items)

  • Area rug
  • Desk
  • Desk chair
  • Credenza
  • Lamp (2)
  • Coaster
  • Office supply caddy
  • Coat rack (wall-mount - currently unused)
  • Clock (2)
  • iPad
  • iPhone stand
  • Reading glasses
  • Journals (2)
  • Pen
  • Prism
  • Keepsake Tiffany heart
  • Spare phone cables (3)
  • Spare watch band
  • Necklace
  • Worry stone
  • Wristlet
  • Business cards (1 small box)
  • Extension cords (2)
  • Chair
  • Side table (2)
  • Bench

The bedroom (30 items)

  • Bookshelf
  • Picture frame
  • Portable hard drives (3)
  • TV
  • Nintendo
  • Super Nintendo
  • Basket (4 - just got a set of 3 tiny nesting baskets need just the biggest one so will give 2 away)
  • Media stand
  • Side table
  • Nightstand (though this is exclusively used by my husband
  • Surge protectors/extension cords (3)
  • Bed frame
  • Mattress
  • Duvet
  • Comforter
  • Pillow
  • Pillow case
  • Fitted sheet
  • Fan
  • Alarm clock
  • Lamp
  • Wall clock
  • Apple TV

The bedroom hallway closets/cabinets (203 items)

  • Dresser
  • T-shirts (8)
  • Pants/jeans (7)
  • Shirts (2)
  • Lounge pants/sweat pants (7)
  • Sleep shirt
  • Undergarments (20)
  • Socks (4 pair)
  • Rings (3)
  • Necklaces (3)
  • Protective bag
  • Hangers (20)
  • Chair (2)
  • File tote (2)
  • Important papers box
  • Keepsake memory box (3)
  • Lamp (1 - unused)
  • Backpack
  • Travel pouch
  • Sailing gear
    • Jackets (4)
    • Pants
    • PFDs (3)
    • Harness
    • Duffel
    • Small electronics bag
    • Tote
    • Boots
    • Flip flops
    • Plastic shoe bins (2)
    • Sunglasses (2)
    • VHF + charger
    • Bluetooth speaker
    • Compass
    • Medicine kit
    • Race watch
    • Basket
    • Binoculars
    • Whistle
    • Hand crank radio
    • Emergency light
    • Flashlight
    • Head lamp
    • Rigging knife
    • Small gear bag
    • Baseball hats (7)
    • Gloves (4 pairs - though one is my husband's)
    • Command hooks (2)
    • Hanging hooks (2)
    • Hangers (18 - 4 unused)
    • Reference books/materials (15)
    • Spare aluminum hangers (8)
  • Autographed book (to sell)
  • Spare duvet (4 - 1 to declutter)
  • Spare fitted sheet
  • Spare bath mats (2 - 1 to declutter)
  • Spare towels (4 - 2 to declutter)
  • Spare pillow cases (8)
  • Christmas stockings (2)
  • Spare shower curtain (to declutter)
  • Plastic linens storage bins (4)

The en suite (41 items)

  • Hand towel
  • Hair towel
  • Bath towel
  • Bath mats (3 - though one is used just by my husband)
  • Scale
  • Trash bins (2 - though one is used just by my husband)
  • Baskets (4)
  • Bamboo drawer-ganizers (3)
  • Hair brush
  • Toothbrush
  • Body brush
  • Nail clippers
  • Nail file
  • Razor
  • Tweezer
  • Hair elastics (7 - though these are quickly consumable)
  • Soap "dish"
  • Toothbrush holder
  • Hairbrush holder
  • Q-tips holder
  • Command hooks (5)
  • Plunger
  • Toilet brush

So that's it... just about. 678 items? Wow, that's a lot. And I didn't even count my cat's furniture, dishes, brushes, toiletries and toys.

I suppose that's what I get for counting each fork, each basket/container, my toothbrush, a plastic curtain liner, and those pesky command hooks.

Also, I really need to get rid of some of those Allen wrenches. Who needs 20? I think I've used maybe two in the past year.

I also suppose I shouldn't have swapped out almost all my plastic containers for more sustainable options as I may have gone basket-crazy in the process. I've already gotten rid of two that didn't work out. And I have four more on the way (one to replace a plastic bin, two I hope to use in my pantry, one to hold my portable hard drives on my bookshelf). And I would love to find one to hold/hide my laptop on my bookshelf.

But even though I have four baskets on the way, I still suppose I should have waited to do this tally until after my next declutter (this weekend) which will involve me getting rid of a few spare linens, a pair of shoes or two, some other unused items, and a couple other plastic bins as I'll be able to move the items into some of those baskets I have lying around.

Still. Wow. It's a lot of things. No wonder it took so very long to pack up my stuff from my last place. Because even though I didn't take any/many consumables, many of the things I now have were purchased in and delivered to this new space, and I got rid of even more stuff since the move, there were still at least 500 items that had to be cleaned, considered, cared for and ported just to find their way into our new space.

And if I were to dive into those keepsake boxes I'd have to add about 40 things to the tally - as the boxes contain journals, license plates, a signed baseball, and many, many scrapbooks.

Oh, and I haven't counted the car, though it's my husband's, and I don't keep anything in it aside from items slated for donation/recycling (wire hangers, a broken shelf, etc.). Still, as I use it, it's technically an additional "item' for the tally.

I am clearly a long, long way from minimal.

To be continued...

Monday, July 9, 2018

having more than enough

After all this time of assessing and reassessing my needs, I still haven't quite figured out how much stuff is enough. And while I have reduced the things in my cupboards somewhat drastically, I still feel as if what is left is more than enough.


I don't want there to be too few items in my cupboards, but I also don't want there to be too many.

I will never be the girl that has just one spoon and one bowl. But these days having four dinner plates, four small plates, two soup bowls, two salad bowls, four cereal bowls and two fruit bowls seems excessive.

I use most of these items on a daily basis, because I rotate them. But I don't find myself using four of any item at once. And as I hand wash all my dishes after each meal (mostly), I only ever use two, or possibly three plates or bowls before they get washed and put back into my cupboard.

I watch a lot of YouTube videos where minimalists let their household items serve double-duty. But I don't know that I'd be happy using a big plate when a small plate would suffice, or eating a small bowl of oatmeal out of a large bowl.

For my household, "enough" might amount to two large plates, two small plates, two small cereal bowls (instead of the four of each we currently have). Having two of everything would likely be enough. Most of the time.

Because, while we rarely entertain or have people over, I imagine that on occasion we might. And I would hate to be in a situation where we didn't have enough, or have to serve food to our guests on disposable dishware.


I also think I have more than enough when it comes to specialty items like wooden spoons, measuring spoons and cups, and the like. I rarely open this drawer packed full with cooking tools and utensils

I haven't even used the can opener, tea ball, spare ceramic knife, or two extra placemats. And yet I don't want to find myself without any of these items should the need arise. Because I don't know of another item that can easily open a can but a can opener. And if I found myself in possession of some looseleaf tea, I would need a way to steep it.

But I despise having "just in case" items. Even if that "case" is one that's a very real possibility versus a pipe dream.

Of course, on the opposite side of things, I am also trying to remind myself of the fact that I have more than enough. Because our new space is much larger, with more drawers and cabinets, and some of them are very sparsely filled - with just one or two items - and some of them are completely empty. Which sometimes leaves me with the feeling that they need to be filled... or if not filled, have at least one thing in them.

Twisted, right?

Maybe I should learn to appreciate "empty" a bit more. Or maybe I just add a little note to self in each empty cupboard and drawer that reminds that "empty" is a good thing. Even if it means the guest bathroom looks strangely vacant. Even if a particular wall looks especially lonely without something bringing it to life.

Maybe I should spend more time thinking about the fact that as it stands I have more than enough to live comfortably and happily and that I love most of the things I have and that if I acquired more I just might not love everything quite as much.

To be continued...

Sunday, July 8, 2018

Procrastination

I hate to admit it, but I'm a huge procrastinator. When it comes to procrastinating, I procrastinate everything from blogging, to reading, to writing, to organizing, to decluttering, to completing my log book, to responding to texts, to going through email, to posting things on craiglist (for sale or for free), to deciding what I want to do with my life.

Sometimes I even procrastinate dusting (my least favorite of household chores).

But after much thought, the main reason I procrastinate is decision fatigue.

I spend so much time thinking about all the things I have to do, making lists, thinking about how I'm going to do those things - and in what order I will do them - that I don't actually get around to doing most of them, if not all of them.

I'm almost six months behind in updating my sailing log book (the print version) and about a year behind in the digital version online. I'm about two months behind on my reading and reviewing pile. And I'm several weeks behind in making decisions about a hanging lamp, hanging coat rack, and two pieces of artwork.

But I've been delaying decisions on some of my keepsakes, "important" papers, digital clutter for years and years. And it weighs quite heavily.

Every time I take a staycation I set these lofty goals of tackling each of these things, but rarely accomplish even one of my goals.

There is always a reason why I can't do X, Y, or Z. There's always a good excuse to procrastinate. There are always so many more things I can do instead - like watching YouTube videos on how best to accomplish some of these things, amalgamating the lists of things I need to do, buying storage solutions for things that need to be kept and organized.

There is always a reason to procrastinate those tough decisions.

But as I creep forward on my journey toward that simpler life I desire, there are fewer and fewer things that need to be accomplished and therefore there are fewer things to procrastinate and there is less decision fatigue.

With fewer things there are less decisions that need to be made about them. With fewer things, there are less things to have to dust. With fewer things there are less excuses to be made to procrastinate.

And with fewer things there are less excuses not to pursue the life I want.

Of course, right now I'm procrastinating by just writing this post.

To be continued...


Saturday, July 7, 2018

it isn't easy being green

In my quest for simplicity I've decided to try and be a bit more green. But it has not been easy.

I know that consuming less helps and I've been doing that. Somewhat. And recycling helps. And I've been doing that too.

But trying to find items that are made locally, made sustainably, are eco-friendly, and function as well as those that aren't any of the former is HARD.

Everything seems to be mass-produced, made in a country not known for their sustainability, or has some element of plastic involved.

I'll never be zero waste - I'm too much of a consumer. I do enjoy the conveniences of things like disposable razors, microwave meals, tea in bags not bulk, pre-made (if eco-friendly and non-toxic) cleaning products, toilet paper, and paper towels.

But trying to keep my home as green as possible is a challenge. And shopping trips for necessities has become enormously stressful and hugely time consuming. Even when shopping online.

There is so much packaging that comes with even the littlest things I buy - and even when it is recyclable it's still such a huge waste of resources. And while there is less packaging if I buy locally, the amount of fuel used to travel between shops in my area seems like it is a less green option than buying online.

Buying in bulk can help with packaging, but as someone who's trying to live minimally, it's not the way to go, either.

I try to convince myself that every little bit helps - and I suppose it does in some ways, though it doesn't ever quite feel like I'm helping enough.

And right now my pursuit of living a greener life seems to contradict my goal of living a simpler life.

I'm going to have to try and figure out a balance, I suppose.

To be continued...

Friday, July 6, 2018

Use it or lose it

While I have not fully settled into my new space - I blame decision fatigue - most of my things have found their permanent homes.

I still have a few decor items to make decisions on (my hanging lamp, a hanging coat rack, a desk lamp) a file box filled with papers that I have to go through and purge/declutter, a few keepsake things I need to make decisions about once and for all, some sailing gear and reference books I need to organize, and my work supplies that aren't situated in the most functional way.

But overall everything is where it should be (or near where it should be). And when I open my closets and cupboards everything is easily viewable.

So it makes it easy to take stock of what I have and whether it's being used on a daily, somewhat daily, weekly, semi-monthly, or monthly basis.

Because of this - and because I want to make sure that I'm continuing to stay on track with my goal of living with less - I've decided to do these daily, weekly, semi-monthly, monthly checks to see what I'm using and what I'm not using - and if I'm not using it, I'm losing it.

I have a number of items that are for specific occasions or activities, that won't get used regularly, but that I must keep - foul-weather gear for sailing, safety gear for sailing, a hand-crank radio should we have a power outage, various tools, screws, nails, spackling paste, and the like. I also have a few extra cleaning supplies that will take some time to use - but will be used.

But even still, I am looking (and plan to look) through everything just to make sure that they are items I still need, use or will use.

While it is still early days, I've already opted to part with a few things:

  • VIPP bath hooks. We used them in our old space, but decided not to put as many holes in the wall here. I had planned on keeping them for "someday" when we owned our own space, but decided it wasn't worth hanging onto them for that possibility. So I sold them.
  • Rothko framed print. This was tough - it was a recent purchase and I always wanted it. But it was dark (not one of his sunnier pieces) and I bought it during a dark time. And I didn't want to hang it here because it didn't fit with the lightness of our current space - and also because it was super heavy. So I sold it.
  • Two bowls and mugs. All were hand-crafted and beautiful but I wasn't reaching for them like I was our other bowls and mugs, and while I imagine I'll acquire another mug or two - as I love mugs - I knew these were going to continue being dust collectors.
  • A Shabby Chic duvet. I love Rachel Ashwell's duvets, but this one's color just wasn't one I loved, and while I did use it - and it would work well with the current color scheme in our place, I never wanted to dress the bed with it, so I gave it away.
  • Two jute containers. I just bought them online but knew when they arrived I didn't like them in real life. However I knew someone who would, so instead of returning them to H&M I gave them away.
  • A towel that was of poor quality that already showed signs of wear after just a few uses.
  • Several cleaning towels and sponges and scrubbers. They either fell apart after one use, did not function as well as I'd hoped, or were seen as playthings for my cats - so out they went.
And there are a few things I will likely part with in the coming weeks that keep grabbing my attention during my weekly checks.
  • A handblown glass bowl that is beautiful but we just don't use.
  • Another Shabby Chic duvet or two - one that is lovely but worn and torn, one that I don't love quite as much but I have a sentimental attachment.
  • A hand towel and bath towel - that are good quality but I don't love and my husband doesn't need (he prefers the bath sheets).
  • A grey round basket/container I just bought but was smaller than I thought and while I like it I haven't found a use for it yet.
If I don't use it I have to lose it. And while some items have the potential to be used, I'm going to make the commitment to say sayonara if I don't actually use them by the end of the month. No matter how painful it might feel in the moment.

Because once they're gone I won't have regrets - even if I might miss them just a little bit - but I won't have to see them and think about the fact that I'm not using them or loving them, which makes it all worth it.

To be continued...

Thursday, July 5, 2018

More room, more stuff

Our move resulted in many more last minute purges - kitchen towels, trash can, bits and bobs - and a few purges post-move - a painting, bath hooks, storage totes, towels and linens, bowls and mugs, an over-sized Swiffer, wall shelves, a wall hook, a broken vacuum, et cetera. But it also resulted in quite a few binges... and the desire to make a list of other "must haves."

Moving back into a larger space made sense. Not having our bedroom and our living room serve double-duty as office spaces was (and is) a must. Having room to maneuver around our bed and in our main living area adds tremendous value. But the extra space resulted in more than a few purchases.

While there were many things we knew we'd need - replacements for items such as a vacuum, shower curtain liner, trash can, cat litter box and mat, cat furniture, area rugs in the kitchen and living room, cleaning tools and supplies; some additional pieces for the bedroom and kitchen and office due to the new configuration of space - and there were a few things we wanted to purchase for our new space, we didn't quite anticipate how many things we'd "need" in order for our space to function in the way we wanted it to.

More closets required more hangers - as we couldn't easily "share" hangers for closets in far-off rooms. More closets also meant more storage containers as we were no longer sharing closets for our non-clothing items. Having a shower separate from our tub required an additional bath mat. And the desire not to put quite as many holes in the wall meant many, many, many command products - hooks, picture hangers, etc.

With things spread out more, we needed more surge protectors for our electronics. With more space in the kitchen we "needed" a bit larger over-the-sink dish drainer for our hand-washables. With a second bathroom, we required an additional bathroom trash can, additional cleaning products, additional hygiene products, additional linens. Plus, with more rooms, our felines required more furniture of their own to feel comfortable.

And it all started to feel a bit overwhelming as the shipments came in and the charges on the credit card required scrolling just to view.

Looking around our space it feels like we have far less than we used to, but I know we have much more.

We have a new entryway shelf, a new TV stand in the bedroom that allows us use the old cabinet for our office equipment as it was originally intended, a new "temporary" TV stand we used for a month before the new one arrived but is now being repurposed to hold various technology in the office, a new shelving unit in the bedroom to hold items that we used to place on wall-mounted shelves and had tucked into cupboards, the new nightstand my husband was in dire need of though it makes the small stool we have had for over a decade rather useless at the moment, a new patio chair so we both can enjoy our outdoor space, and a new bar/counter stool so that we both can sit at the island should we wish to. And we have more bins and drawer dividers than before.

While I no longer have an emotional connection to these kinds of things (thankfully as the movers damaged more than 50% of what few items we actually had them move), they do stress me out because I have to clean them or clean around or under them. And when we move again I'll have to port them to the next place.

And while we use all these new things on a daily basis, and our home doesn't look or feel crowded, and our cupboards aren't even close to capacity, my head space feels very cluttered and I feel very much like I've taken a huge step back in my progress toward living simply.

Perhaps I just need some time to reflect, to shut down the voice that says "I need..." and to stop buying things for a while once these final few shipments come in.

To be continued...

Friday, March 30, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 30 + The End

So it's the last day of the 30-Day Minimalism Game and I'm completely fried. But only partly to do with the challenge. Mostly it's been other obligations that kept me up most of the night, and so I didn't get the chance to take any pictures of the planned purges. And I didn't get the chance to go through the photo albums.

Though I did manage to take a couple pictures of some of the items that actually did leave my home today. (It was now or never.)

So I may update this post with the soon-to-be purged item pictures once I actually send them "packing" for the move, along with...
  • 4 fridge magnets that hold our keys
  • 2 grey containers with bamboo lids that "hid" things beneath our kitchen sink but now simply serve as a place to set our unused garbage bags
  • several more cleaning rags and implements
  • our cutlery tray that had to be disfigured to be put into our very, very narrow drawer
  • a few rubber shelf "liners" that didn't work to stop everything from slipping,
  • possibly a few more cables and wires (though I'll likely let my husband store those for just in case) and our two phone stand charges that won't be needed in the new space
  • and perhaps a few more unloved cat toys
But for today...

Day 30


Today I purged:
  • 7 books (give away)
  • 1 coffee scoop (recycle)
  • 1 bottle opener/key chain (recycle)
The other 21 (+2 extras) are items I will be getting rid of (purging, recycling, donating, giving away) next week along with all the items listed at the top of the post.

And yet I definitely feel like there will be more. Like when I finally find a second to tackle the photo album project, go through my decorative storage boxes and bins, have a second to breathe and take stock of what I actually need post-move.

The end...

I am a little sad to have reached the end of the game as I hope I'll never have to play it again - I don't want to have nearly 500 things to purge (unless it's a box of staples).

And I hope that in the next year or two I will no longer be striving for minimal but will have attained my minimal by then.

To be continued...

Thursday, March 29, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 29 + Binges

It's the second-to-last day of the 30-Day Minimalism Game and I'm so thrilled it's almost over and that this month is almost over. March is always such a long month as it is, but with the anticipation of a move in my future, it's that much lengthier. Even with the fact that participating in this "challenge" has made things move along a little bit quicker.

Even though today's 29 picks were quite easy.

Day 29

For today:
  • 29 FLOR brand carpet tiles are on the purge pile.
We have four FLOR area rugs - in our kitchen, in our living room, and two in our bedroom. All in they are comprised of a total of 29 carpet tiles from FLOR.

As we need a much larger runner in our new kitchen, we don't need any rugs in the bedroom, and we will need a larger rug in our living room, we have no need of these four rugs.

Thankfully FLOR will allow us to ship these tiles back to them to be recycled into new rugs (and they'll foot the shipping bill). So we bought two boxes which should fit all 29, and plan on sending them off to FLOR in a week or so.

So that was an easy 29. And if I don't get the chance to go through my photo albums early tomorrow morning, I am likely going to have a very hard time coming up with the remainder of the 30 items I need to purge.

The problem with purges is that they are often accompanied by binges.

And during this purge I have had a few binge-y moments in addition to the must acquire items needed for the move.

While I don't have pics, here are the binge purchases I made during this challenge - that I am using and will use - but that I didn't absolutely have to buy:
  • Glass straws, cleaning brush, carrying case and a ball jar to hold them. Love the idea of the glass straws, but didn't absolutely need them - I can drink without any straws if I want to help the environment.
  • Wooden measuring cups. I got rid of the toxic ones, but as I rarely measure things and my husband has some plastic ones he uses for his cereal, I could have probably used them instead of getting some of my own.
  • Tote bags. I bought a couple of tote bags that I could stuff in my purse and use if I needed an emergency shopping bag, as they fold up so small. But as we are moving away from shops that I might need to hand carry things for a distance, I probably could have gotten by without any.
  • An 8 inch fry pan. I wanted one for ages, even though I haven't been cooking much lately. I had a coupon and it was on sale so I couldn't resist. But I could have. And probably should have.
  • Two "right-sized" bowls. We have two bowls already that are the "right size" for what we need as long as I hand wash them every night. But of course I decided to get two more in a different style that I thought were lovely "just in case" I felt like letting the dishwasher do the work for me in our new home. But I don't really need them.
  • Hangers. I didn't absolutely need new hangers, but I wanted them. I was just so tired of the pink, bright pink, purple and white hangers we had. I wanted something a bit more sophisticated, more space-saving. But I didn't absolutely need them.
And while I feel that many of the non-binge purchases I made for this move feel a bit splurge-y, they are either absolutely necessary, or wanted by both myself and my husband for our new space. So I'm only choosing to feel slightly guilty about the binge purges.

To be continued...

Wednesday, March 28, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 28 + Guilt

Just three more days to go and I'm so stoked that this 28th day of the 30-Day Minimalism Game is done. Because Day 29 is easy - I have the perfect amount of one thing to recycle - and that just leaves Day 30. Oh Day 30... But that is another day.

Day 28


For today's challenge day, I have all sorts of odd stuff I'm purging - some will be going on their way today, some in two weeks when I move:
  • 12 shower curtain rings (recycle on move-out day)
  • 1 shower curtain liner (recycle on move-out day)
  • 1 plastic spray bottle (recycled)
  • 2 grout scrubbers (recycle on move-out day)
  • 1 sink scrubber (recycled)
  • 1 sofa pillow (discarded)
  • 1 plunger (recycled)
  • 1 toilet bowl cleaner wand + 1 toilet bowl cleaner caddy (recycle on move-out day)
  • 1 plastic cereal container (recycled)
  • 1 dental item + container (recycled)
  • 2 light bulbs, 2 light bulb converters, 1 power plug (give away or sell)
So that's 28. Yay! Though I wish I was moving out today so I could get rid of all of this stuff and not just some of it.

The curtain rings are rusting - we're getting new ones when we move. The shower curtain liner has not held up well either, so out it goes.

The cleaning supplies are ones we won't be replacing when we move - we'll be getting more eco-friendly products/items.

The pillow is being replaced as the feathers (which are super sharp) just won't stay in the pillow insert and end up everywhere. (Problems with cheap pillows.)

The cereal container is going to be replaced with a glass container - the plastic on this one, like the one we previously purged, is getting all chewed up and we don't want to eat bits of plastic. Yuck.

The dental item is no longer needed so I'm bringing it back to the dentist to recycle.

And the power plug with two Edison bulbs and two bulb to socket converters are either going to be given away to a family member or sold if they don't want them. I had grand plans for this to light our dark laundry closet that didn't have lighting, but I never found a way to wall mount it, the Edison bulbs got super hot so I didn't feel like it was safe, and then we got the kittens and I knew it wouldn't be. So it's never been used and as it's fairly expensive I'm looking for a good home for the bunch.

Ahhh guilt.

As this challenge has progressed I've started to feel guilty about all that I've accumulated and all that I'm sending out into the world in the way of trash, recyclable materials, and wanted and unwanted "gifts."

Sure I've had a few twinges when it comes to the amount of money I spent on these items, but I've had not nearly as much guilty feelings about the money as I have about the waste, about cluttering up someone else's home, about the impact I have had and continue to have on the planet.

I have not given much thought to the landfills I've been filling, or to the homes I've been crowding until recently. And when my purges were done in fits of anger, bouts of frustration, or in little "doses," the impact didn't dawn on me in quite the same way.

But as I head to the post office or UPS or FedEx each weekend, as I head to the trash room to sort out the recyclables or discardables, as I drive to the eCycling facility, as I head to the Container Store to buy another shipping box, I feel bad. I feel guilty.

The one bright spot is that I am learning a lot about sustainability. I am becoming more conscious of my waste and I'm trying to find solutions that won't be wasteful or harmful. I'm trying to reuse, buy local, buy handmade. I'm looking for sellers who think about the environment, I'm trying to take up less space and use less things, which helps alleviate some of this guilt.

But not all.

I just hope with our next move I won't need to go through my possessions in search of things to purge in large doses, aside from paper clutter. I hope I won't ever need to do this 30-day game again. And I hope I'll have learned to shop smarter, so that my things will be not only durable but be "want-able" for years to come. I'm keeping fingers crossed.

To be continued...

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 27

Today's purges for the 27th day of the 30-Day Minimalism Game are being shared a bit later than planned. But I had absolutely no time today to go through my things. I'm just glad I found a few minutes to snap a pic of (hopefully) 27 things I'm saying goodbye to.

Day 27


Because things were a bit rushed I have added three items to the list today that I won't be purging until we move, though I'd only planned on listing those later purges on days 28 through 30. I just had no time to go through all my things for three items I could purge tonight. And those three items are also not shown in the pic as I didn't get the chance to grab one in time to add them to the collage. But here are my 27 items:
  • 18 articles/reference docs/materials on sailing and racing (recycling).
  • 1 sail bag that is just too small to fit all the things I need (giving away).
  • 1 scale - we had two and don't need them both (giving away).
  • 1 pair of worn and torn sailing shoes (discard) + 1 plastic storage bin that contained them (recycling),
  • 1 length of throwing line (giving away).
  • 1 doormat (recycling).
  • 1 cat litter mat (not shown).
  • 1 cat litter box + lid (not shown).
  • 1 cat litter scoop (not shown).
So that's 27. It was fairly easy as I'd read and/or scanned in all 18 reference docs/materials, and the rest were things I was ready to part with. We also get new litter boxes and accessories when we move - and we already have a spare scoop, so that is taken care of.  And the doormat is just so scuzzy as it's outside in the hallway, that there was no way we were bringing it to our new abode.

Hopefully Day 28 won't be too difficult. While I have a few "future purge" items on tomorrow's list, I had hoped to fill the rest with immediate purges. So I'll need to come up with a few more (try 22) items to let go of - time-permitting it will be photo albums. But we shall see.

To be continued... 

Monday, March 26, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 26 + Not-so-perfect Solutions

It's the 26th (and almost final) day of the 30-Day Minimalism Game and due to unplanned delays yesterday I didn't get a chance to pull out of my storage boxes the umpteen photo albums I was hoping to have ready to get rid of today. So there was a bit of a scramble going through the bathroom cupboards early this morning ad my tool box just moments ago, to hit today's magic number.

Day 26


For today I managed to get rid of:
  • Two Sailing magazines - read one, the other they sent a duplicate.
  • One Weck jar lid + rubber seal and two clamps (counting all as one). Have a wooden lid coming - as I plan on using it for small batches of ground coffee, the clamped lid is just too complicated.
  • One Ball jar lid - use this for multiple purposes but none of them require the lid so I'm getting rid of it.
  • Two phone charger stand accessories - the final rubber holder that was on the charging stand, and one insert for Micro USB devices - we don't charge any of those on the stands.
  • One display bowl - used to use for fruit but it was too fragile and was sure to get destroyed by the felines. Giving away to a family member since we have no other use for it.
  • Nine bathroom cupboard items - a travel soap dish that we haven't used for years; three toothbrushes given to us by dentists that we have no use for and while we might need them someday, these have been in our cupboards for months (if not a year); one electrode device for back pain that was ineffectual; four expired medications.
  • One book I've read and plan to give away.
  • Eight items from the toolbox - three adhesive products used for intended purpose and no longer needed or ineffectual for intended purpose; three caulking/sealing products used for intended purposes and no longer needed; one sanding block used for intended purpose and no longer needed; one bag of picture hangers not needed as they were too small and have been hanging onto them for years.
  • One very large photo album used to store 8x10 and 9x12 photos. Photos were removed to put in a photo box with other photos and/or given away to other family members. Plan to donate, give away or sell along with other photo albums I'll be going through this week.
So I think that's 26.

I am more than a bit disappointed in myself as I had planned on going through all my photo albums, but carefully removing the photos from this album took many hours (there were 59 very old, very fragile pictures in there that got a bit destroyed due to their removal from an album that was put together about a decade ago).

As the beginning of the week is always more hectic than later in the week, I may end up sharing those items due to be discarded in two weeks over the next few days, then doing that huge album purge later in the week. But if I get done with work early enough today I might have enough energy to tackle things. We shall see....

In the meantime...

Not-so-perfect solutions.

What I've come to learn over the course of the many years that I've been struggling with my things is that there is no perfect solution to their storage or their discard.

I used to seek the perfect storage solutions. I spent countless dollars and even more hours on trying to find the right tools - solutions that would be perfect for the hodge-podge of things I owned.

It/they weren't out there.

I despised the fact that I couldn't find the perfect way to store all my cards and photos and trinkets and media.

I hated that I couldn't group things together in such a way that they'd "fit" within the constraints imposed by the solutions I found that I thought would be perfect.

Everything was a bit too big or too small or didn't account for X item.

And even those solutions that seemed to be more than adequate would always be a problem as I just had too much stuff contained. So I bought shelves and racks and bins and boxes to store these storage solutions in that contained the stuff I owned.

It was overwhelming. Which meant it was not perfect.

Sure, everything looked organized and well-kept and contained. Everything seemed sorted and had a proper place. But I was never happy. Not once.

And so the cycle would start again. At least until I started getting rid of many of my things and going digital with others.

Even those systems started to weigh heavily and over the past five years I've been getting rid of those things too. At least the ones that didn't have any meaning to me.

My keepsakes are stored in some not-so-perfect solutions (have been for almost a decade) - although some might say they are perfect. I have identical shaped scrapbooks, identical shaped and colored photo albums - except a few which are in the same product line but are different sizes. And for someone who had a less transient life than we do, they might be perfect.

If I could put these things on shelves in a closet - easy to access if I wanted them, out of sight if I didn't want to see them, I might be okay with the solution and with the quantity. But that's not my life and it won't be for a long while.

As I can't get rid of everything - or at least I won't right now, I will have to redo many of those not-so-perfect storage solutions and come up with ones that might seem less perfect, but are more suited to my current existence.

And I think I can live with not-so perfect solutions as long as I don't feel the weight of them with every move. At least I hope I can.

Though I imagine in a year's time as we think about moving again, what I have will feel heavy again. And hopefully at that time I'll be ready to cull things even further - even if the result will be an even less perfect solution than the one I'm moving toward now.

To be continued...

Sunday, March 25, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 25 + KonMari Method Sparking Joy and Sparking Sorrow

This 25th day of the 30-Day Minimalism Game was an easy one, especially as I earmarked the 25 things I was getting rid of on this day of the challenge on one of the first days of the game.

For today...

Day 25



For today's challenge I'm getting rid of the last 25 of my/our plastic hangers (a.k.a. giving away). We had them for years, these pink ones were mine (light pink for clothes, darker pink for outerwear and sailing gear). They served me well but I wanted something less bulky, less colorful, more me. I have that now. And unless the hangers we have break or become damaged in some way or my life changes radically, they will be our hangers for life.

And as it was such an "easy" day and I have little to say about what I'm purging, I thought I'd chat about another decluttering method that appears to be quite popular.

The KonMari Method...

I first learned about this from watching YouTube videos this past February. I had never heard of this -  aside from a book on the psychology of stuff and The Minimalist's film, I hadn't really been on top of these ideas/trends/fads in this area for some time.

But it seemed like an interesting way of thinking about your things so that you could get rid of them - even if it didn't quite apply to me at my stage in my journey. And so I bought the eBook...

...and I haven't been able to make it to the end (unlike goodbye, things by Fumio Sasaki which I loved and found had quite a lot of valuable ideas and food for thought).

The KonMari Method just doesn't gel for me - or at least reading about it. I think it's perhaps the concept of "sparking joy" that doesn't resonate.

Watching the videos I see how people apply the Method itself to what works for them, changing it in subtle (or not so subtle) ways - which is wonderful as whatever works to give people the life they want is always a plus, though the changes in the Method sort of make it not the Method. As the KonMari Method seems pretty rigid.

While I do love the idea of categories - that makes a lot of sense to me - I, like a few others I'd seen on video, wish she'd broken down some of those other categories into subcategories as I have little in the way of clothes and books and other household items, and a lot in the way of paperwork and keepsakes.

And while I do think there are very interesting and valid points in what I had read of the book, I can't seem to move past the "sparking joy" idea which seems to be at the forefront.

I often mistakenly say I "love" my possessions, but what I really mean by that is that I enjoy having them around as they are useful and they don't bother me (and some of them even look nice). But I only really love the people and beings in my life (and occasionally myself). I don't love stuff.

And so I don't like the idea that I should be deriving any type of happiness from my things or relying on my things to spark happiness, as that will make me form a stronger attachment to them. Therefore if and when they do get taken, destroyed, or I have to part with them, it will spark sorrow.

I am not striving to be a minimalist who has the fewest amount of things they possibly can (at least not at this time in my life). And I do want the things that surround me to be useful, hopefully beautiful, well-crafted, and perhaps sustainable. But I want them to just be the things that get me through my days in as simple a way as possible.

I want my joy to come from my experiences. I want my joy to come from the people and beings in my life and those I encounter on my life's journey.

If I pick up each item, make myself connect to it, treat it in a way with respect, then it gains importance in a way that might not be healthy. What if I do tear a hole in my shirt when on a sailing adventure? Does that mean I'm not being respectful of it? Or if I don't take the time to fold it in just the right way - should I feel guilty for causing it stress?

I understand that if you treat your things well, they will treat you well. But if caring for your things becomes stressful, is it worth it? Or if you won't let someone do the laundry when you're feeling ill because they'll do it wrong, is it worth it? Or if you won't let someone use something because you're so concerned with its potential for damage and it causes you and that other person unhappiness is it worth it?

I say no. And, for me, by revering my things, treating them in the ways suggested in the book, attaching emotion to them, will lead down this path I had already been down before.

If something can spark joy, it can turn around and spark sorrow and spark anger. So while I will appreciate my things, care for them as best as I can, they will always be labeled as "just stuff" - important for my comfort but not important enough to risk my life over if they were threatened by fire, flood, theft, etc.

To be continued...

Saturday, March 24, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 24

Welcome to day 24 of my version of the 30-Day Minimalism Game. And it seems at this point in the game I've lost my ability to count. I was all set to post and realized that I was five items short. So I had to track down those wayward five and add them to the pic.

As everything is so random, it's no wonder my count was off...

Day 24


Today I purged:

  • Two cat toy balls that were unsafe for the kittens as they already started to chew the foam off the one ball and unravel the sparkly string from the other (discarded)
  • A rubber finger puppet intended for a gift until one of the kittens found him and bit off the hand. (As the original recipient thought it would be hilarious to have a single-handed finger puppet I will be sending that along.)
  • Two half-used packs of seasonal stamps. Every time the holidays roll around I buy another book of stamps and never go back to the old. This is two year's worth so I'm giving them to someone who will actually use them.
  • One more plastic hanger I get to give away now that my husband has gotten rid of another unused piece of clothing.
  • A book I just finished reading and reviewing so I'm going to pass it along.
  • Two kitchen utensils that have been used for quite a few years and are a bit past their prime. The tongs don't open quite right and were always impossible to clean. The pasta fork is quite scratched and did not work well with my pasta pots since it would scratch them. The tongs won't be replaced right now as we haven't used them in some time, but the pasta fork is being replaced with one with silicone ends that won't damage my cookware.
  • Two Shabby Chic pillowcases that I have had forever and loved but never once put on the bed. They're very fragile so I can't use them with the kittens, the material isn't very soft and doesn't feel cool against the head, so I'm finally passing them along to a family member who will use them for decorative pillows (of which we have none).
  • A water bottle I purchased which turned out to be a very realistic looking forgery. Amazon let me keep it to do with what I will, but I've no plans to keep it, have contacted the authentic manufacturer and am sending them the bottle so they can hopefully catch the forger.
  • An unused insert for a K-cup coffee machine and an unused strainer for the insert. We had purchased an extra (they came in two packs) back when we had a K-cup coffee maker, but haven't had one in over two years. Apparently it was hiding behind my husband's AeroPress. So I'm going to donate these to my office who use the K-cup machine but sometimes like ground coffee.
  • Seven rubber inserts for the phone charger stands we use. We don't use them for any of the devices we have (though I think one is actually on the stand that I can remove as it doesn't assist in keeping the devices securely in place). They've been sitting in our tech drawer "just in case." And even if we do give away the stands one of these days, it's not worth holding onto these rubber pieces that I'll have to wash and pack when we move. (I'm hoping they're recyclable.)
  • Two plastic food storage containers - both of which are recyclable. The cereal container is all roughed up inside (darn those grape nuts) and has become discolored from years of use and the dishwasher. We have another, newer one, which holds our cereal (for now). But we haven't used this one in months - if not longer - and if I do end up needing another, I'm going to opt for glass. The sugar container is starting to lose its ability to seal after years of use. It was also just a bit too small to house a box worth of sugar - mostly due to the amount of space the lid took up. I've just purchased a hand-turned mason jar with a wooden/metal lid that seals, and it's the perfect size.
  • One magazine that came in, I've perused, and am sending on its way instead of letting it sit in the pile of "things to read."
So, I think that's 24... Phew. Not easy today. As I already have tomorrow's purge planned, it will be a much, much easier Sunday... though I may end up jumping ahead and tackling Monday's purge then. We shall see.

To be continued...

Friday, March 23, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 23 + Decision Fatigue

It's now the 23rd day of the 30-Day Minimalism Game and with just seven more days and "just" 189 items left to purge I kind of can't believe how quick the month has gone. With all my griping yesterday, another positive about this game is how much focus it's taking away from the stress of actually moving.

Usually by now I'm trying to pack things up and get ready to go. But due to the fact that we are in such a small space there's nowhere to put the things I pack and because I no longer use boxes to pack up the things I have - we own three large and one medium storage bins that we have used and will use again this time to move our non-furniture possessions - I have a lot of time on my hands to potentially stress.

But because of the stress and focus I'm channeling into this game, I haven't had much energy left to worry about the fact that I have nothing packed and ready to go (I have very strict sanitation/cleaning requirements before moving any possessions), we haven't actually received the official green light to move into our next space (no signed agreement/paperwork), and I will be leaving a home we lived in during a time when there has been a lot of change and loss.

So, I change my opinion just one day later - I think this game has actually been good for me. And so for today...

Day 23


I've manged to get rid of:
  • 14 articles I set aside to read "someday" - I read a few I recycled the rest.
  • 1 spatula - giving away (the nylon spatulas don't hold up well for us yet I kept buying them, so I'm trying out a different type of material).
  • 2 bottles of sealant and 1 applicator (unused) - giving away. Had planned on sealing up all the crevices in our current space to prevent pesties but never got around to it - and the areas I wanted to close up just in case I did with a product I could apply by hand.
  • 3 thank you cards, 1 gratitude card and 1 instruction/care manual - recycle, I don't need to keep any of these and have no idea why I kept them all for as long as I have. (I usually get rid of these type of things fairly quickly.)
So that's 23. And it wasn't too hard to part with any of these things - though I wished I'd kept the receipt on the tools so that I could have returned them. But someone will definitely have a use for them.


Decision fatigue...

I've used a lot of brain cycles going over and over my possessions wondering what I could toss, what I wanted to keep, what I think I might want to toss, what I might want to look through to think about whether there was something I wanted to toss. And while I've done a lot of this for this game, this is actually something I've been doing on and off again for the last decade or so.

And it's exhausting. And such a waste of energies and thoughts that could be used toward things more productive or positive or happy-making.

I've only recently heard the term decision fatigue, and I definitely think this term applies to my every day. Which is part of the reason I played this game - I just want to be done with this cycle of thinking about my things (or at least my conscious brain thinks it wants to be done with this).

I want my energies spent on making decisions that matter, decisions that are important to my life. I don't want to reach a state of decision fatigue that renders me useless to make the real decisions, the tough decisions, the decisions that affect my present and my future. Not anymore.

I've spent too many years thinking about my stuff, and it's just stuff. Unimportant in the scheme of things. If I use it and enjoy it and it gets destructed - so what? If I lose it or it gets taken - so what?

I've known what matters most to me for many years, yet I still have an unhealthy obsession with thinking about my stuff, making decisions about my stuff, and leaving no brain "energy" left to make the "healthy" decisions.

I'm ready for the change.

To be continued...

Thursday, March 22, 2018

30-Day Minimalism Game: Day 22 + Challenge Woes and Where Things Stand

I'm still here and it's the 22nd day of the 30-Day Minimalism Game. Although I think the only reason I'm still "playing" is that I have this obsessive need to complete a task that I've started. Because I don't have very many purge-able things left, even if I get rid of photo albums - unless I dispose of photos.

But I did go through my tote of paperwork that needs sorting and have found a few things that I can use to count for today (and tomorrow's) game.

Day 22


While it may be tough to count there are 22 pretty recipe and gratitude cards in the pile that I'm recycling and/or giving away.

They were all just so pretty that I knew I wanted to give the duplicate recipe cards away, but I just couldn't find the time earlier. But with this challenge I've decided to give all the cards away after taking photos of the recipes I may make "one day" and get rid of the gratitude cards even though they are lovely. I have the pottery and use these items every day, the cards are just very lovely clutter. Especially for someone who rarely bakes - even if the fantasy version of myself does so all the time.

Challenge woes and where things stand...

But I have only one tote of unsorted papers - and I tossed all receipts and other non-essentials that I am not counting for the game. I have a few things to think on and a few more things to declutter, but once I'm done with that, I have very little left to purge, and 105 items (for days 24, 26, 27, 28) to find.

And I'm so stressed out.

Which makes me think that maybe this game isn't the best game for me as it's more stressful than motivational, and it's not so much simplifying my life as complicating it.

Because I spend a large amount of time wondering what else can I get rid of, looking through my cupboards and closets, and drawers. But there is very little that is mine or just mine and I won't even think of counting anything we get rid of that belongs to my husband as I know it will make me start to look at his things and want to purge them. Which is a huge no no. This is not his game. This is not his journey. And he doesn't have any issues with his stuff and readily discards things when they get too clutter-y for him.

So I find myself taking longer look at things that I might have been okay with as they were. And I've purged items that I don't like or aren't in great shape but do need, so will end up buying again - hangers, food storage containers, and a few (but not all) of the kitchen utensils I've let go of.

And so I feel like I'm consuming more in order to become the minimalist I want to be. Which doesn't quite translate. So I'll have to think on that a bit further.

But as far as my things go...

I've gone through my entire kitchen, and only have my toolbox left to sort through - though most of the tools in there are ones I use on the occasions I need to use them (I think). And while I may have one or two items in my kitchen I might want to part with (one of which I'd eventually want to replace), there is little else.

My living room has always had next to nothing. Only the cabinet beneath the TV which houses a few decorative storage boxes with keepsakes remains. But as many of those things are "shared" items, I don't know that I'll have a lot to get rid of. (I'd already gone through one box and emptied it a few days back.)

My bathroom has (mostly) only what we need - aside from a few things that I might be able to get rid of... but unless I can find a responsible way of decluttering them, I may hold onto them until we use them (which we will soon-ish/eventually).

There is nothing but the four file totes containing photo albums, scrapbooks and important papers in my closet that I could purge. And I'm going to try to go through those this weekend and make a decision once and for all... which may require the small purchase of an archival box or two to keep whatever photos remain. (Yet another instance of buying to have less.)

I have nothing in the bedroom - any clutter there belongs to my husband. I just have what I need to sleep on, sleep with, function with (reading light, clock). And a few pieces of artwork on the walls that I love.

In the hall closet I've gone through everything and while I don't use anything in there (but shoes) on a daily basis, I do need everything that remains for my weekend hobby - sailing. Though I do plan to purge a pair or two of sailing shoes and some other gear at the end of the month and/or before the move, as they are worn out and do need replacing.

And I do have a small-ish stack of books - a couple that I'll be reading this month and can part with, but most won't be read and passed along until April and May, so I can't count those.

We are eating our way through the pantry and I think I've found anything that needed to be purged/recycled storage container-wise.

And I went through my small outside storage closet prior to the challenge and emptied the containers of everything that was mine aside from a signed baseball and my diploma.

But I do have sixty or so items that I have earmarked for the last two days of the game that will be getting recycled and/or purged when we moved two weeks later. We just need them until then. But I'm counting them!

I suppose I just wish I didn't have a huge clean up a week or so prior to the game. Or maybe that I chose a game that was one of those "ten things a day" challenges.

Or maybe what I really wish is that I wasn't quite so obsessive and instead of struggling to complete the game I could end the game early, happy with all that I'd gotten rid of.

To be continued...